Barbra, oh I wish you well. The instinct of working the land, be it bees, food, flowers, is engrained in the human soul. Our ancestors worked the land, that was life. I have always been a country girl, and thank my lucky stars I am a country girl still. I think by the hard work that I do working our land, it has added eons of years to my life (ooops, did I say that, hee, hee).
If you have this desire of being that country girl, it will be manifest and you will find a way to have it so. I wish you well. It sounds like your community is not the best place for a lot of stuff. Your Mother knew that well, that is why she worked so hard to change things, too bad that things didn't change as much for her as she desired.
Go, girl, go, find that piece of land that will make your heart fulfilled, you deserve that......have a beautiful and wonderful day, love this beautiful life. Cindi