Reading through this one gives me visions of the pet hamster on the running wheel, going hard and getting nowhere.
Duane. Take a step back. Take a deep breath. Now think, why are you doing this bee thing at all? What are your beekeeping goals? What is the vision, what do the hives look like and what does the apiary look like when you are in that happy place of those goals achieved? Do you see it? Do you got it? Ok good, now steady yourself and take a clear step forward in that direction, one frame at a time one hive at a time.
Can a vision and goal be, to understand bees slightly more? For the sure enjoyment of curiosity? As when my dad had asked me why I poked the bumble bee nest - to see what would happen!
I would like to get to the point when I open up a box, see a situation, and know (at least with good odds) exactly what to do to solve it without having to close it up, go back to my notes, sleep on it, then the next day say, hmm, maybe I should have done such and such, but it's too late now.
And it's good when people tell me: Sometimes it just happens no matter if you do everything correctly. I'm just trying to figure out what the best case scenario is, compared to when things just happen. When I leave multiple queen cells and get multiple swarms waving at me, that's hard to watch. But if I know I left too many bees, I can fix it the next time. Or if I don't leave enough cells and only bad queens hatch out and have a poor colony, I can know to leave more cells next time. Or if I know sometimes things just happen but not usually, then I can just not worry about it. That's my goal, (one that is), to know the difference.